I dont know if i'm pscho or what! i just want to p schooling!?

I'm a sopre student somewhere in the Philippines. You see, i dont talk that much at school and no one likes me,really, coz i seldom give attention to evrybody. Somehow, There's something in me that was developed a long time ago without even noticing it. My, my, i just want to become like of those ordinary students but how can i possibly do that when my inferiority always attacks me. I dont know if im already crazy or something but when i've got another bad memories to add in my mind, i feel like bursting out and i wanna yell at all the people who misjudged me. And yeah, how can you solve this problem of mine? = Because i'm not that teacher's pet, he has already that enough reason to fail me? how was that! I hate favoritism in the cl!It makes me sick! Most especially to those students trying to get close to the teacher and make friends where in fact they dont really have guts but only their superiority!!!! But then, i just want to say i hate myself coz i cant do, or even make friends with anyone... and that i am jealous, no one is listening to me when i talk either.